To transform breakdowns into breakthroughs is the whole function of awakening. The psychotherapist patches you up. That is his or her function. They are not there to transform you. Some even take the option of numbing you to the pain with pharmaceuticals. Its like giving you a permanent crutch instead of strengthening your muscles to eventually walk again with your own legs.
Awareness is healing. Being aware by stepping back and recognizing that part of you that can never be harmed or do harm — and understanding this Higher Self has created a playground for enacting all kinds of situations that will enable you to stretch, develop strengths and ultimately open to your highest good. The greatest challenge of this playground is to break through the illusion that you are not safe, supported and loved.
Healing means you no longer identify with the part of you that is an outsider, a victim, a sufferer. Don’t let other’s label it through conditioning and fears.
You can remove yourself from these labels and identifiers as soon as you see it as a play, and you the actor. While you are on stage its very important that you identify with the role, live it, breathe it, own it. But once the play is over, and even though your heart is still beating with the emotion of perhaps a heart-wrenching scene, there is no need to stick around.
With a little courage you can let go and move on, when you are ready and only then. Very scary, especially when you don’t know anything about the next play.
OSHO describes it beautifully:
We are all like seeds. The seed cannot know what is going to happen, the seed has never known the flower. And the seed cannot even believe that he has the potentiality to become a beautiful flower. Long is the journey, and it is always safer not to go on that journey because unknown is the path, nothing is guaranteed.
Nothing can be guaranteed. Thousand and one are the hazards of the journey, many are the pitfalls-and the seed is secure, hidden inside a hard core. But the seed tries, it makes an effort; it drops the hard shell which is its security, it starts moving.
Immediately the fight starts: the struggle with the soil, with the stones, with the rocks. And the seed was very hard and the sprout will be very, very soft and dangers will be many. There was no danger for the seed, the seed could have survived for millennia, but for the sprout many are the dangers. But the sprout starts towards the unknown, towards the sun, towards the source of light, not knowing where, not knowing why. Great is the cross to be carried, but a dream possesses the seed and the seed moves. The same is the path for man. It is arduous. Much courage will be needed. (Osho Zen Tarot VIII Courage)
Think of downswings as a productive burning-through of the natural emotional residue from disappointments, resentments & pain left over from events & experiences now behind you.
No need to push away, clutter or repress these throes of sadness or apathy. Instead, allow them to wash over you, and to pass on.
You are not a weak person, in fact you are stronger than most. To feel such immense pain is to feel immensely. Only a person of depth enters onto this path. The truly wise and courageous go to the depths and extremities before they find the middle.
If you are feeling down, then feel it. Sometimes the only thing you need to be present with is your sorrow. No need to fight it. It will pass.
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